Mirrors see reality.

A late post...

2007-07-22T07:15:07Z

okei. The worst birthday of my life has ended. My prelims is over, at last. I just feel exhausted, depressed and confused. Well, I grow as confused as ever day by day.!

I feel exhausted because of too much studying for the prelims. I have to wake up 2:30 in the morning just to study. Then there comes my birthday which I really cursed. How sweet, I was crying on the eve of my birthday because of some arguments and I feel so betrayed. Well, maybe I'm overreacting, but really I was mad, no, make it enraged that night. And then saturday... I woke up 2:30 in the morning, AGAIN, to study that effin' psychology in which I ended up not hating psycho but HATING filipino at the end of the day! And confused... well, yeah. Until now I'm still confused though I can't think of the PROPER reason.!

God, how I miss my friends! I just wanna be with them! Every hour in the school make me feel wretched! and STUPID!

damnit. happy birthday to me.! yuh. this is a late greeting to myself.

P.S. Abhie, thanks for comforting me. Really, it helps. A lot.

hush_bhaby13 @ 2007-07-09T10:48:00

2007-07-09T04:03:11Z

so. yuh. I decided to update my journal simply because I got no one to talk to. I so goddamn miss the gheis and all my other friends and my classmates are slowly pissing the hell out of me. A week will not pass without problems which are too simple and emotional. And all these effin' problems are chasing me like shit! I'm always in the middle of these arguments and I don't really understand how the hell did I got involved! And there goes that acquaintance party in which I ended up having colds. I don't even understand how their brains work.! They always go like " she's like this, she's like that"?! The hell I care!

The last week has been the worst week of my life....

And then this goes a certain friend who was acting very weird lately..., I just can't read his mind and it's totally pissing me,!

------, tasukette------T_T

for all the gheis!XD, I wrote this for you!

2007-02-12T09:01:17Z

For You

Within these four concrete walls this simple group was formed
Different faces trace me back into this smiling population
Each day I come in this room of glee
Almost a hundred and eighty days of laughing spree
These days are almost over and farewell can be heard with sobs
Tears at the faces of the souls whose voices will surely last
Yet it's not the end but a new step for tomorrow
Sadly, yours will be the sole footstep of the road
You may feel lonely but memories will never leave
Marks and carvings of moments will stay in my beating pocket
Thoughts between friends will never vanish
Photos of timeless companionship will never fade
Different doors will open for our future but sweet minutes will never be locked
It will shed in all parts of the world like the wind that blows the kisses of doves
It will stay till fate walks its way
Till it declares the time of gathering when smiles will be collected back in these four concrete walls

Before that time, when goodbyes seem to be the last
I will write this poem for my friends' memories and our past.

nya!XDDD Hope you like it... kanina koh lang yan ginawa eh...
comments please, I know I suck at this but this is the best update that I can give you...T_T

hush_bhaby13 @ 2006-11-26T14:11:00

2006-11-26T07:11:02Z

YEY!!!!!!! I'M BACK!!!!
HHHEEEEEEEEEELLLLLLLLLLLOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yoy! so how are you people? yeah, seems to me like I've been hiding from the world! I have a new lay-out! yay! thanks to my uber loving friend!!!
LOTS OF THANKS TO YOU WINNIE!!!
well, christmas is coming as well as our third quarter exams. So how is that? Celebrating christmas while worrying for your grades is not good right? Damn, have to undergo through that... also lots of projects and quizzes... Well, goodluck to me and my friends!

I'M BACK!!

2006-07-08T02:11:00Z

okay...I'm back...after how many weeks? I can't remember!

yeah, I know I'm too lazy to update. nah...because there is nothing to tell, nothing interesting has happened and i feel really bored. Last week we had our introduction to the different clubs that we can join. It's a compulsory to join one since it is needed for our CCA grades. There's the Dance Club, Science Club Table Tennins, Fiat, Homemakers A.K.A. Ladyguard's club, Guitar, Band and the Journalism. For the members of the SSG, they can't join any club if they want to because they will be dealing with different projects.

yeah, so i joined the journalism club... I have my friends with me in that club except one, she really like to join us but she can't because she is a member of the SSG, so sad...

and our project is to make the school newspaper and i was assigned to write the article about the SSG, actually i was not assigned, i volunteered for that one since some of my friends are members of the SSG I will not have any problem asking some questions to them.

Yesterday, we had our physics teacher mad at us because she thought we think she is stupid when we don't. She's really so not easy to understand. We had our first friday mass yesterday afternoon and my friends were like fangirling to their crushes over and over. It feels like having cats your companion. Yeah, I did'nt understand the mass but i guess i have fun...

and I guess my weekend will be a tiresome one because I had to do some projects in my classmate's house....

sorry for the long, boring entry...

hush_bhaby13 @ 2006-06-12T10:04:00

2006-06-12T02:22:52Z

huh...

my last update was some days ago so it's been a while... I'm so bored as in super! there's a bunch of assignments! In arts, physics, and the fucking exam cover for teacher nemo! What pisses me most is I'm not in the mood to do those homeworks...

All i want to do is sleep, then sleep and then sleep again! I don't know why but I lack of sleep these past few days! My sister was even annoyed because of me! She keeps on blabbing that I shout during my sleep and I was shouting my younger sister! My mom was also mad because she can hear me from the other room! I dunno what's happening!

Just this morning I was awaken by of my celphone! I was used to sleeping with my phone beside me but not this time! Somebody's calling me at 6:00 in the morning?! And I sound like a dizzy cat! And then the super stupid caller told me that HE DIALED THE WRONG NUMBER?! WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT?! I really want to kill him that moment!

ugh... I really wish i can drift back to my sleep after that but i can't!

hush_bhaby13 @ 2006-06-06T15:07:00

2006-06-06T07:21:11Z

haayyy...

The first day of the school year was somehow great but i still feel terrible. Phatsee, Turish, Winnie and Tinnie are my classmates but i think the school made a big mistake! Xian is not our classmate?! nakakalungkot... I always feel lonely when she's not around. hmmph!

This whole day was like a mess... Bakit ba nagkakagulo ang mga Logistics sa mga O.D.?! Kung bakit naman kasi ang daming liason?! nakakagulo tuloy... kanya-kanyang lagay ng O.D.! Si ENYANG ang magta-talupad bukas?WOAH?! pano kaya siya bukas?

I want to hear Kevin do that TALUPAD something!!! Parang nakakatuwa yung boses nia...

One more thing... pinapadala bukas lahat ng books eh wala pa namang locker... ang bigat kaya nun! Tapos ayaw pa pumayag ni Teacher Marilou ng dalawa lang dalhin... gusto pa lima! Even my sister! Kinukulit akoh kung saan daw nia ilalagay yung gamit nia?! Eh akoh nga ndi koh dadalhin lahat tapos xa dadalhin nia lahat?! Parang gago....

bakit ba gustung-gusto nila pinapahirapan ang mga students nila?!
ndi na naawa...

hush_bhaby13 @ 2006-06-03T15:11:00

2006-06-03T07:38:31Z

wwwaaahhhhh......

Two more days before the start of classes...ayoko pang pumasok...though i'm a bit excited! Congratulations to Tinnie... I told you, say goodbye to your one thousand!

By the way, congratulations to the new officers of BATCH MARANGAL! I can't believe it! Our Batch is BATCH MARANGAL?! unbelievable... PAno tayo naging marangal? sino nagpangalan nun? kakatuwa naman... And one question... bakit si marinelle ang ex-o natin? and si Judar ang S1?

nagkagulo-gulo na yata... nakakawindang naman....

well, Good luck to batch marangal!! Welcome to school year 2006-2007!

hush_bhaby13 @ 2006-05-05T00:01:00

2006-05-04T16:11:06Z

Hi people!! GODDAMNIT! I'm back!! it's been a long time! it's been a month! well, gladly, i had a wonderful vacation! swimming almost every weekends and texting everyday... But some people do not reply to any of my texts! but, its okei...

So? How are you people? Gokusen 1 is shown in channel seven and it really SUCKS!!!!
Their voices really sucks! I really hoped they just use the original Drama!!!!

By the way, i miss my friends... well,who will not miss those kinds of friends?!?!

Thank God I'm back and still doing fine...

Fourth year na kami pagpasok!!! ayoko pa mag-fourth year! goodbye kagaguhan na toh! goodbye kopyahan! mahirap yata mapahiya sa mga prof! But I know I'm a shameless bastard pero nakakahiya parin! Goodbye na sa mga gagong classmates at sa daily ingay sa classroom!!

But the happiest part of it...

GOODBYE SA MGA PESTENG TEACHER!!! Namely: JIMBOY, COCO BUKO, TAMANO, FLORENCIA, HAGRID, MATA, ETC...

hush_bhaby13 @ 2006-03-20T13:03:00

2006-03-20T05:13:15Z

okei so i just learned that the CAT graduation are NOT for the CO's! It is for the graduating stupid CAT officers! i'm not going then! I don't want to waste my time with those fucking people! they irritate me to my last nerve!

tricia... wag na tayo pumunta kasi baka mapagod lang tayo eh sila lang naman ang panonoorin natin! makikita lang natin na uutusan yung mga CO! wag na lang tayo manood! WASTE OF TIME lang yun!

Happy birthday to my youngest annoying sister! Birthday na niya sa Tuesday! matanda na siya! Mommy-yoh... diba mas matanda ka ng one year kay jazzel? magka-age na kayo sa tuesday! ~~punta daw kayo dito! libre niya kayo!!!~~BWAHAHA JOKE LANG!!!!

pagkatapos ng graduation ng mga pesteng officers na yan... may summer training pa pala kayo! pahirap!

Congratulations Renson! You are done with ~~Carylle!~~ May bago na naman! Enjoy! I hope she will not play a game on you! BAka kasi makarma xa!:pXDXDXDXD

hush_bhaby13 @ 2006-03-18T14:11:00

2006-03-18T06:19:13Z

okei... so i'm back... i felt like i was in hiatus for I haven't touched my pc for 6 days?!?!?! I wonder how did i managed to last that long?! well, my week does not turn out too bad! but what bothers me most is that NASA DAVAO SI TINNIE?!?!?! and i do not know anything! how rude!

as for the CO's... i pity you guyz and winnie some officers even noticed that wonderful bangs of yours? sana pinagsasapak mo na lang sila! And a news for all of you... remember na binalikan ni renson yung girl nia diba?! well... the girl dumped her... pinagpalit siya kay barlaan! yung second year varsity! and what made it more wonderful is that kaya siya hindi maka-attend sa practice kasi namamaga yung kaliwa niyang kamay! sumemplang kasi sa skateboard ang gago!

lastly... monthsarry kahapon nila BRO! ang tanga niya diba?!

hush_bhaby13 @ 2006-03-11T20:39:00

2006-03-11T12:46:19Z

okei... so now i'm feeling very lonely! and i pity my MISS! he's been dumped! imagine, he's been doing everything for this stupid girl and she don't mind about him at all! i thought the girl like him too but i heard from my sister that the girl do not like him?!?!?!

and my MISS even cry for that girl... those tears are treated as treasures! i hate that girl... i pity my miss! winnie... come with me... let's kill that girl! she even have the guts to dump such a beautiful man?!?! what kind of brain does she have?! dumping such a goddess... my blood are boiling like hell...

i hate her!

winnie halika na... patayan na toh!
kawawa naman... ang ganda-ganda, pinapaiyak!

hush_bhaby13 @ 2006-03-09T17:28:00

2006-03-09T09:36:55Z

well... i'm glad the exams are over! numbers are still ringing in my head... i can still hear Hagrid's continuous babblings... such as: MGA WALA KAYONG DISIPLINA!; ANG TITIGAS NG MGA BUNGO NIYO!; GUSTUNG- GUSTO NIYO TALAGA NAGBE-BREAK NG RULES?!?!?!, etc! she's driving me mad! TOTALLY MAD AND I WANT TO PUNCH HER FACE AND LEAVE HER DYING!

gladly, chemistry turned out not bad as well as math, though i need to ask my classmates for some answers because of my stupidity! What made me suffer are the minor subjects especially THE and Computer! well, is it possible to have summer classes for minor subjects?

nyahaha! i pity my sister! kawawa naman... she's running for the position of secretary in the school SSG?! even tinnie and monique! and the rival of my sister is BEa?! bwahaha... manalo kaya siya?!

Xian,

sasayaw daw sila ng Sugod by Sandwich?! sabi koh nga hindi na tayo manonood... makikinig na lang tayo!!!

hush_bhaby13 @ 2006-03-04T21:24:00

2006-03-04T13:39:54Z

nakakainis noh... kapag may mga taong importante sayo... tapos pag may ginawa kang mali...napapansin nila kaagad. pag sila naman ang may ginagawang mali at pinagsabihan mo magagalit. sasabihin oo nga, oo nga! tapos hindi pala susundin! magugulat ka na lang siya pa yung galit sayo kasi nkikialam ka!

bakit ba may mga taong ganyan? putang-ina naman! magpapagago ka na lang sobra- sobra pa!at ang tindi... hindi man lang namili ng lugar?! hoy! putang-ina kayo! pag nag- pda kayo konting galang naman! mga punyeta!walang patawad! pati ba naman sa bahay ng mga kaklase niyo?! ang titigas ng mga mukha niyo! lalo ka na mukhang pera ka!AT WAG KA MAKAASTA- ASTA NA PARANG IKAW YUNG KAWAWA!ULOL! gingagago mo na nga yung kaibigan koh ganyan ka pa?! ayus- ayusin mo buhay mo! tarantado!

puta lumugar naman kayo! at ikaw babae... kung ayaw mo mapagsabihan... umayos ka! ayos lang kung hindi ka nahihiya sa mga kaibigan mo! sige ayos na, konting paggalang naman sa magulang ng kaibigan mo! pati sa kwarto nila dinala niyo yan?! ano yan MOTEL?!?! walanghiya naman o! mahirap ba gumalang?! konti lang naman!

hush_bhaby13 @ 2006-03-01T19:04:00

2006-03-01T11:26:50Z

wow... like i'm having a problem with a friend's personal life! having a boyfriend who loves you because of money?!?!?! and you still stick with him?!what kind of stupidity was that? ~~i pity her~~... but i can't help myself from being mad at her!

well... I SPEND MY WHOLE DAY SLEEPING! not actually the whole day but almost! i'm planning to absent on friday but i haven't decided about it yet!

i will have my final exams next week and i still have to spend extra time for my math subject since i'm having difficulties this past few days... and i still have to study for my history subject because i heard that the exam will be very tough! Meaning i really need to study hard! and that also means that I will not be updating my lj... but i will still do if i have some extra time...
that's it...

hush_bhaby13 @ 2006-02-25T16:48:00

2006-02-25T08:54:50Z

wow... I just had a very boring Friday! I have to stay in our house all day because i had an argument with my father and that was my punishment! Like Fuck!!! He knew it well that i can't stay in our house in such a long time!
He even ask me to clean the whole house! Of course i can't say no! I feel relieved when my cousins arrive this morning! I don't have to stand my father and my punishments that long! aND MY MOM IS COMING HOME THIS EVENING!!! Congratulations to myself. I'm still alive!

Winnie, I'm so sorry if i don't made it last sunday and i can't come to your house... i just said the FUCKING reasons...

hush_bhaby13 @ 2006-02-23T17:45:00

2006-02-23T10:06:04Z

hey guyz!what would you feel if someon you really hates bump on you someday and smile at you?!

well, my week is turning out not so bad and not so good! i'm somehow happy but i still feel miserable AND MY MOM IS NOT GOING HOME!well, i can't live without my mom you know! i'm over protective with my her! and besides i can't live a day with my father alone!we might end up slaying each otherwhich is bad! and ut seems that my mom will be spending two days in laguna which means i will also be spending with my father that long!thanks to my sister's presence!

another one... have i made a very stupid thing today? i mean for cutting pictures in my present THE book for our assignment? well..i know for a fact thatwe will not reach that side of the book so I cut it out for my assignment since i don't have one! well... for me it isn't bad...

hush_bhaby13 @ 2006-02-20T16:46:00

2006-02-20T08:43:02Z

after a long weekend...ngayon lang akoh nakapag-update ng journal koh!i pity myself!life is so miserable!nakakalungkot tuloy!
longtest week na ngayun...three weeks na lang kami papasok including this week!and then fabulous vacation na...kaya lang mukhang hindi akoh magbabakasyon kasi kailangan koh DAW mag-aral for the entrance exams next year!very advance pero ayaw akoh pakawalan ng ina koh!kailangan koh pag-aralan ang isang libro for the UPCAT!?!?!?!anong kalokohan yun?!bakasyon nga diba?BAKASYON!!bakit may aral parin!
well, i can't blame my parents kasi para nga naman hindi akoh bumagsak sa entrance exams pero isn't it too rude?!?!?!

another bad thing...it seems to me na isang boung linggo ang malas koh!after my brother ruined my sunday...tuloy-tuloy na siya!
sino ba naman ang matutuwa...pagkatapos kang lokohin behind your vack?dinong ungas naman ang babalik pa diba?i mean...pinaglaruan ka na totally tapos babalikan mo pa?WTF?!and alam mo yung feeling na you are worried about him tapos sasabihan ka lang ng "WAG KA NA LANG MAKIALAM?!" what do you expect from me?matuwa?!what fuck are you talking about?!

eh di bahala na laqng siya...hindi naman akoh nakalimot na magpasabi di ba?!

hush_bhaby13 @ 2006-02-16T16:26:00

2006-02-16T08:36:35Z

wahhh....T_T i'm on hiatus now since my pc has a damage!!!!

i can't live without my pc.... okei...i'll die now!
I CAN STILL UPDATE MY LJ...I HOPE!
i don't have a VERY good valentines day but i also did not turn out so bad.yung tama lang. i'm still having my daily moodswings and i pity one of my classmates. sa kanya lagi nasisisi kapag badtrip akoh. but he don't mind so it doesn't matter.

to winnie!i was really amazed about what you did last valentines day!i never thought you have the GUTS and the NERVES to do that!
I'M WILLING TO SUPPORT YOU!

KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK!!!!GANBATTE!!!

hush_bhaby13 @ 2006-02-13T16:39:00

2006-02-13T08:31:16Z

nyahaha!after a petty quarel...i'm with turish again!in fact nandito kami sa imee's nag-cocomputer!nilibre nia akoh!and then after this we're planning to have some shake!my treat!so wala lang...palitan lang!grabe ang daming projects!nakakalula!hindi koh na lam kung ano uunahin koh!nakakatamad tuloy!

i can't feel tinnie's presence this past few days!tinnie paramdam ka naman!you're so far eh!NDI KITA MA-FEEL...FEELING KOH TULOY ABSENT KA MINSAN!paramdam ka ha!

hush_bhaby13 @ 2006-02-12T03:43:00

2006-02-12T03:52:14Z

hoy!!!may mga taong nakakainis jan!lam nio ba yun!

hay naku salamat naman at natapos koh na din ang mga pesteng projects!
kakapagod!kayo ba ndi napagod?!monday na naman tomorrow!sana walang batalion kasi nakakapagod!nd tinatamad akoh!

super ikli ngayon ng entry koh kasi nababadtrip akoh ngayon...
bye-bye!

hush_bhaby13 @ 2006-02-11T16:44:00

2006-02-11T08:43:09Z

hay...kakapagod!this weekend is very hectic!i feel so haggard!ang daming projects!kung kani-kaninong bahay akoh pumupunta!ngayon kila ana bukas kila winnie!nakakapagod!ang dami kasing projects tapos ang damin pang ginagastos!MAY ASSIGNMENT PA SA CHEM, PROJECT SA MATH, PROJECT SA HEALTH, PROJECT SA ENGLISH, PROJECT SA FILIPINO, PROJECT SA SOCIAL!!!!!MABABALIW NA AKOH!!!!!!!

KUMUSTA ANG MGA NAGPUNTA SA U.P.?!

balita koh ndi daw nakapagpapicture sila xian-chan, turish and phatsee kay mark abaya?!i pity you guyz!sayang ang opportunity!lam koh yung tatlo yung sinisisi nyo, pero sayang kasi talaga!parang ako yung nanghihinayang para sa inyo!para ngang nakikita koh yung mukha ni tricia!

BETTER LUCK NEXT TYM!GANBATTE!!!

hush_bhaby13 @ 2006-02-09T18:54:00

2006-02-09T10:57:07Z

GO JUNIORS!!!!

ang galing nio!ang saya ng laro!buti nakaakyat pa akoh ng kwarto ng buhay!hindi akoh napatay ng magulang koh!

nice game!all the players did their best!!!phatsee...BURAC?!

ndi koh lam kung ano pumasok sa utak ni winnie at nasabi na yun kay JIN?!?!?!pero ang cute pakinggan...kahit halos mapatay mo na kami!

QUESTION: Bakit super hectic ng week na toh?!ang daming assignments, projects and schoolworks...tapos sumasabay pa yung mga longtests!ndi koh pa nga nauumpisahan yung project koh sa health eh!tapos one day lang yung extension?!pero much better kesa wala...kaya lang kulang parin yun...

BAkit may mga taong pagkatapos manloko eh babalikan pa yung niloko nila?may lakas pa ng loob!uutusan ka pa para bilhan siya ng chocolate?pagkatapos ng ginawa niya sayo?!WTF?!?!?!dalawa na sa mga kaibigan koh ang ginaganyan!those bitchy girls made me ITCH!

ANG KAKATI NIO!!!

sana lang yung mga kaibigan koh hindi TANGA para magpaloko pa ulit sa inyo!!!!

hush_bhaby13 @ 2006-02-07T19:27:00

2006-02-07T11:25:25Z

hay naku kawawa naman ang mga CO!xian-chan!what did you just did?!bakit mo binigay kay PECKO yung number koh?!aning ka talaga!pag yun nagtext sa akin di ko lam gagawin ko dun!

nothing interested happened today.Just a typical weekday.lots of homeworks,projects and stuffs!ndi koh pa nga tapos yung assignment koh sa chemistry eh!kayo ba tapos nio na?!!

sige hanggang dito na lang entry koh ngayon kasi tinatamad akoh...

hush_bhaby13 @ 2006-02-03T18:31:00

2006-02-03T10:28:39Z

hi!do you want to know about how does it feel na walang fourth year?ang saya!para kang nabunutan ng tinik!!!!but there is something that really bothers me!ano kaya mangyayari sa monday?magkaroon kaya ng mass-quitting?or magkaroon kaya ng pagganti sa juniors?

xempre hindi mawawala ang pagganti!dun naman sila magaling eh!pag monday lang naman sila bumabawi!mga aning kasi sila eh!sa CO kaya nila kahit araw-araw!eh sa private?hanggang monday lang sila!!!mga bahag ang buntot nio!

about the mass-quitting?!mukhang malabo yun kasi yung iba walang pakisama!puro sarili ang iniisip kasi xempre kung marami nga naman ang mag-quit eh di wala na!officers na sila!dun talaga sila magaling!

pero kung magkaroon man eh di masaya!para malaman nila na hindi utu-uto ang mga juniors!ang titigas kasi ng mga muha nila!lalo na yung mukhang aso na may boses na ipis!ang kapal!!!kilala nio ba yun?!madali lang naman xa ma-distinguish eh!kitang-kita nga eh!

actually marami sa kanila ang boses ipis kasi feeling nila pag iniipit ang boses nila cute sila!kailan pa ba anging cute ang ipis?!eh peste yun sa bahay eh!just like them!nothing but pests!

two thumbs up talaga akoh kay arcille!hindi xa katulad ng mga pacute na yun!may paretreat-retreat pa!tumalab naman ba?!buti kung tumanim sa utak nila yun!eh ang tanong may utak ba naman sila?!buti kung meron!eh pano kung wala!eh di tapos na!kaya dapat hindi sila nagyayabang kasi pare-pareho lang tayong nakaapak sa lupa!unless lumulutang mga paa nila!iba na yun!